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Remember
I remember a day,
Not so long ago,
When I told you how I felt,
And let this love go.
And I remember all those times,
Times when you said you cared.
Now those times have vanished,
Into thin air.
A memory,
Of my love for you,
I thought it would last forever,
Because I thought it was true.
And even though it still exists,
It’s not as if you think of me.
I’m chasing after something,
That was never meant to be.
My heart has collapsed,
Pain is killing me.
But you’ll never come to my rescue again,
Because you’re too blind to see.
And all because of that day,
Not so long ago,
You have no more feelings for me,
Because I let this love go.
When we were over,
I thought for sure it was the end.
I never knew that someday,
We’d be friends again.
And then the time passed,
And gradually,
You came back,
And started talking to me.
But those days are over,
They’re done, they’re through.
You and I will never be,
Me and you.
The heartache is gnawing on me,
It’s tearing through my soul.
It’s so close, it’s scary,
To sending me out of control.
Why can’t you help me?
Why can’t you see?
My heart is bleeding hopelessly,
But you’re not there to save me.
How do I live?
How do I breathe?
Is there any way,
You can answer these questions to me?
All I ever did,
Was hope and dream,
For something so perfect,
It seems.
It would be my wish,
My fantasy come true,
Even if it were for only one day,
That I would have you.
And while you’re out,
Making other girls fall in love with you.
I’m sitting at home,
Always thinking of you.
Here she is, a girl that really loves you.
They all tell you that but you turn the other cheek.
But I keep on loving you,
Each and every week.
And I pray that God will help me,
That someday he’ll show me the way,
So maybe I’ll be really happy,
I only ask for one day.
And if the world were to end tomorrow,
And the next day never came,
And you never loved me again,
I only have myself to blame.
Because I remember that day,
Not so long ago,
When I told you how I felt,
And let this love go.
And back then I never knew,
I was too blind to see.
How much I needed you,
And I think you still need me.
We have become different people,
You’re a jerk, and I’m forever mean.
And all I’m asking for is a chance,
To tell you my feelings and come clean.
You’re a better person than that,
This isn’t how you’re supposed to be.
Because way back when,
This wasn’t how you treated me.
Why are you being this way?
This isn’t the real you.
You’re being someone else,
You’re not being true.
There is no truth,
To your endless lie.
And it pains me to see you like this,
I could break down and cry.
Believe me, I have,
It’s not easy,
To cope with the way,
You’ve been treating me.
And everyone says, "Give up!
He’s no good for you!"
But I know who you really are,
And I know none of that is true.
I question your worth,
Each waking day.
I’m the only one there,
To tell myself it’s going to be okay.
How could you sit here,
And want me to die?
When everyday you’d tell me,
To please stay alive?
Remember how much,
I needed you then?
Well, I still need you now,
This isn’t the end.
But as each day closes,
Draws to an end,
I realize that you were never,
Truly my friend.
And if you were,
You wouldn’t want me to die.
You wouldn’t drive me,
To pick up that knife.
And I as I sit there,
Suicidal tools in hand,
I try to remember you,
Think of you if I can.
And I think of that day,
Not so long ago,
When I told you how I felt,
And let this love go.
As the darkness creeps in,
So closes another day.
Just another unhappy ending,
I can’t have my way.
Everything else is perfect,
Everything else is fine.
The only thing wrong in life,
Is the fact that you aren’t mine.
And you know that I love you,
It’s not as if I never told you.
I would tell you everyday,
If it was all I could do.
But too much is never enough,
So I’ll always be in pain.
And somehow I’m thinking,
You’ll ever be the same.
Maybe someday,
I’ll get back to me.
Put you in my past,
File you under, "never meant to be."
But as for now,
I still need you in my life,
To tell me it’s going to be okay,
And tell me, "Please don’t cry."
I still need your understanding,
Your caring voice.
Even if I could only,
Hear it once.
You’re my deadly drug,
You’re my addiction,
You’re who I need,
Like my obsession.
I’m crying for your help,
I need your help to get through my day.
I need you to console me,
And tell me it’ll all be okay.
And even if you can’t love me,
Even if you won’t,
I’ll always sit around and wait for you,
Even if you don’t.
And though the days pass,
And everything seems so hopeless,
That all means nothing to me,
Nevertheless.
Because no matter how you treat me,
No matter how many times you make me blue,
You’ll always be in my heart,
I swear I’ll always love you.
I could recite,
Everything I just said,
Every single day,
Even when you’re gone and dead.
It’ll always be the final word,
I’ll always be lost in a lie,
But I’ll wait for you forever,
No matter how much it makes me cry.
I’ll always remember,
That day not so long ago,
When I told you how I felt,
And let our love go.
If you can’t ever love me,
At least meet me in the middle,
I want us to be friends again,
Like we were when we were little.
Everything changes,
Time will always come and go,
And my feelings for you will always be there,
Even if they don’t always show.
And if you ever need a shoulder,
If you ever need a friend,
Look no further than me,
I’ll be here till the very end.
Maybe I’ll always love you,
Maybe I won’t.
Maybe I’ll cut my life off,
Maybe I’ll choke.
I want you to tell me,
To keep on living.
You’re so lucky in life,
Always winning.
And if I’m gone,
Even if my life is through,
Please remember that even in Heaven,
I’ll still think of you.
All I ever asked for,
Was a second chance.
Even if after that,
You never gave me a second glance.
Everyone deserves,
A second chance at life.
But it’s kind of hard to do that,
When you’d rather die.
But just for the hope,
For the pure thought of having you,
I’ll keep on living,
I’ll do the best I can do.
Each and everyday,
From the first of January to the last of December,
I’ll always think of you,
I’ll always remember.
